a solid grip on depravity

One day, quite some months ago now, E  (who is two) responded to one of my reprimands with a violent, “But I don’t want to be good, I want to be BAD! I AM BAD!”

Well, yes, yes you are, little one.  You don’t even know how bad you are.  Mommy’s bad, too.  It’s called sin. It’s called needing Jesus. It’s called deserving hell.

SONY DSCNeedless to say, I agreed with her out loud, and the dialog has been ongoing ever since.  We were driving back from the farm last week, and her little voice calls me from the back of the van, completely out of the blue: “But does R sin, Mommy?”  Her questions are kind of endless and often off-topic, but it’s beginning to be clear that she really, truly understands after all this that she is bad.  And that Mommy is bad.  And that bad people deserve punishment.

That’s all the farther that we’ve gotten. She knows about heaven and Jesus, but clearly isn’t grasping yet that bad people don’t go to heaven except by His grace and His blood.  Still, this is a little piece of the Gospel she’s grabbed a hold of, and it’s so very exciting to witness the pieces begin to fall together, wherever God takes her.  And it’s been a really good reminder to me of the Gospel itself, as I struggle to put it in two-year-old vocabulary.  (The biggest stumper so far: she asked me why Adam and Eve’s sin meant that all their descendants would sin, too. I couldn’t begin to string together an answer that made sense to her.)

No better Gospel.

I’ve been reading this biography of Spurgeon (did you know he was the eldest of seventeen children?!?), and I find that one passage has stuck unyieldingly in my head [chapter 1]:

C. H. Spurgeon had been announced to preach at Haverhill in Suffolk, and—an exceptional incident—he was late in arriving. So his grandfather began the service and, when the expected preacher did not arrive, proceeded with the sermon. The text was "By grace ye are saved." He had gotten some way into his discourse when some unrest at the door made him aware that his distinguished grandson had arrived. "Here comes my grandson," he exclaimed. "He can preach the Gospel better than I can, but you cannot preach a better Gospel, can you, Charles?"

There’s so much grace—so much truth—in that simple assertion! The best preacher in history still can’t improve on the Gospel.

Taking things literally…

Our car shop is in walking distance, so S left after he got home, on foot, to pick up our car. This conversation promptly ensued:

E: Where did Daddy go?
Me: He went to get the car.
E: Oh, it’s fixed already!?
Me: Mmm-hmm.
E: Where did Daddy go?
Me: He went to pick up the car.
E: He can’t lift up the car, it’s too heavy!
Me: (laugh) that’s true… I mean… he went to get the car, to bring the car.
E: Oh. (long pause) Did the neighbors fix our car?

January Angel Food Meal Plan & Recipes

It’s finally finished, almost two weeks earlier than last month’s! My goal is to have the February plan up before the ordering deadline, so you can order the boxes after you get a good look at the plan. But this is what it is, for January:

January Angel Food Meal Plan and Recipes (single page, much better formatting)

Ordering: This plan uses the 2 Bountiful Blessing boxes and 1 S3 (premium fresh fruit and veggies) box.  Total $105.  The only thing I’m using that’s not in the 2 BB boxes is some of the vegetables, so you could just buy the 2 BB boxes (total $82) and buy the produce at the grocery store for probably less than $10.

 

Comments:

  1. If you’re only going to the grocery store once, at the beginning of the plan, cook the recipes with celery, bananas, and/or fresh bread first.  
  2. I’m using some of the same recipes as last month, because I didn’t actually get to cook them thanks to the arrival of number 3.  I won’t usually repeat recipes that fast.  Exceptions are the Sausage & Potatoes recipe and the Blackeyed Pea Soup recipe, which are just really good (hearty, healthy, yummy, and inexpensive) recipes that we actually want to eat as often as I want to cook them!
  3. I divvied up some vegetables, but a couple meals still need the addition of a can of green beans or something.

 

Goal: As usual, to feed my family of five (including three little people) 30 meals, while buying little from the grocery store.  I’m not using the hot dogs, the fruit, or the meat box in the plan, and we’ll give away one of the bags of fries.  This also doesn’t use nearly all the breaded chicken–I’m still learning what to do with it.  This plan feeds 28 meals.  I’ve been trying to find somewhere to squeeze out the extra meals, but the truth is that we don’t eat that many meals a month at home, that there will be some leftovers anyway, and that I really don’t want to squeeze out the extra meals this month–I like the recipes I’ve picked!

 

Meal

from box

from pantry

from store

Spaghetti

1/2 Fully-Cooked Meatballs

Pasta

Pasta Sauce

parmesan cheese

bread

 

Peanut Butter Baked Oatmeal

quick oatmeal

milk

eggs

butter

baking powder

salt

vanilla

peanut butter

 

Crockpot Black Eyed Pea Soup

*freeze half*

Sweet Italian Sausage

1 onion

1 cup diced carrots

6c chicken broth

italian seasoning

1 c diced celery

1lb dried black eyed peas

Stuffing-topped Pork Apple Skillet with Sweet Potatoes

Bone-In Pork Chops

onion

apple

sweet potatoes

Balsamic Vinaigrette

brown sugar

 

stuffing

Sausage and Potatoes

Breakfast Link Sausage

potatoes

onions

 

 

French Dip Sandwiches

and Fries

*reserve leftovers*

Choice Beef Netted Roast

Fries

soy sauce

bouillion cube

bay leaf

rosemary

thyme

garlic

french bread

Beef & Barley Soup

leftovers from French Dip

carrots

onion

butter

beef broth

1can diced tomatoes

basil

oregano

1c quick-cooking barley

celery

frozen peas

Meatball Orzo Soup

1/2 Fully Cooked Meatballs

½ bag yellow squash and zucchini

2 eggs

chicken broth

parsley

lemon juice

3/4c orzo pasta

Minestrone

Minestrone

 

 

Stir-Fry with Sauce and Rice

Breaded Chicken Breast Assorted Pieces

onion

carrots

cabbage

Beef-Flavored Rice & Vermicelli

assorted vegetables

stir-fry sauce (e.g. La Choi sweet & sour)

 

White Chili and Cornbread

1lb Lean Ground Beef

Northern Beans

Jiffy Cornbread Mix

 

1c medium salsa

1c frozen corn

8oz jalapeno pepper cheddar cheese

Spaghetti

1/2 Fully-Cooked Meatballs

Pasta

Pasta Sauce

Bread

Parmesan cheese

 

Italian Sausage Soup

Sweet Italian Sausage

carrots

northern beans

½ bag yellow squash and zucchini

garlic

beef broth

1 can stewed tomatoes

2c spinach

Roast, Potatoes, Carrots, Onions

*save leftovers*

Choice Beef Netted Roast

onions

carrots

potatoes

 

 

Roast Beef Hash

eggs

oil

garlic

thyme

cayenne

nutmeg

heavy cream

Lasagna and Green Beans

Lasagna

Green Beans

 

 

Moist Cheddar Garlic Oven-Fried Chicken and Peas and Carrots

Split Chicken Breast

 

Sugar Snap Peas and Carrots

butter

garlic

seasoning salt

dry bread crumbs

cheddar cheese

parmesan cheese

Herbed Chicken and Tomatoes and Yellow Squash and Zucchini

Split Chicken Breast

 

Yellow Squash and Zucchini

2 cans italian diced tomatoes

pasta

sugar

1 envelope savory herb with garlic soup mix

parmesan cheese

Chicken Nuggets Parmesan and Green Beans

Breaded Chicken Breast Assorted Pieces

Green Beans

 

1 jar pasta sauce

parmesan cheese

mozzarella cheese

Pork Chops with a Maple-Mustard Glaze and Cornbread

Bone-In Pork Chops

Jiffy Cornmeal Mix

butter

chicken broth

maple syrup

dijon mustard

sage

thyme

2tsp heavy cream

Sausage and Eggs

Breakfast Link Sausage

Eggs

 

 

Meatloaf and Rice

1lb Ground Beef

Oatmeal

Onions

Egg

Beef-Flavored Rice & Vermicelli

Ketchup

 

Minestrone

Minestrone

 

 

Crockpot Black Eyed Pea Soup

*from freezer*

 

 

 

Hearty Harvest and Ham Stew

onion

cabbage

potatoes

carrots

olive oil

garlic

celery seed

caraway seed

paprika

1lb ham steak

3c greens

Lasagna and Sugar Snap Peas and Carrots

Lasagna

Sugar Snap Peas and Carrots

 

 

Baked Banana Oatmeal

Quick oats

2 eggs

milk

brown sugar

butter

baking powder

vanilla

chocolate chips

3 bananas

Meatball Subs and Fries

1/2 of Fully-Cooked Meatballs

Fries

pasta sauce

rolls

 

Grocery List:

  1. rolls
  2. french bread
  3. 3 bananas
  4. celery
  5. 1lb ham steak
  6. 1 jar pasta sauce
  7. 1 envelope savory herb with garlic soup mix
  8. 1pk chicken stuffing
  9. 1c medium salsa
  10. orzo pasta
  11. quick-cooking barley
  12. 1lb dried black-eyed peas
  13. pint heavy cream
  14. mozzarella cheese
  15. parmesan cheese
  16. cheddar cheese
  17. 8oz jalapeno pepper cheddar cheese
  18. frozen corn
  19. frozen peas
  20. 3c + 2c greens (spinach)

 

Cost-cutting tips:

  1. both the recipes that call for heavy cream could be substituted with milk
  2. making your own sandwich rolls and french bread is much cheaper than buying them
  3. you can find a recipe for the soup mix here
  4. I will probably substitute regular cheddar cheese for the jalapeno pepper cheese, since we buy cheddar in bulk
  5. the recipe comments have instructions for substituting regular barley for the quick-cooking kind

Happy eating!

The object of my silence.

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He has finally arrived, and already the brain cells are coming back.  Smile Unfortunately, the synaptic connections are accompanied by a great deal of busyness and a great lack of sleep, so writing is still not forthcoming.  A few more weeks, I hope.

I did want to mention the Angel Food order that my menu plan will be based on for the upcoming month—hopefully when things settle down, I’ll be posting the actual plan itself before the orders are due, but that’s not going to happen this month (and in point of fact, my menu plan for this month may be even more chaotic than last month’s).  Nonetheless, if you’re following along with my madness, then I’m ordering: 2 Bountiful Blessing boxes; 1 S2 (Steak & Chicken Combo) Box; and 1 S3 (Premium Fresh Fruit and Veggie) Box.  I have greatly enjoyed the oranges and tangerines from this month’s box, and am sorely tempted to order two S3s just to double the orangey goodness, but I don’t know what I’d do with twelve pounds of potatoes!

December Angel Food Meal Plan & Recipes

So, I had great plans of publishing this weeks ago–it was complete in the particulars–but I wanted to finish/polish a few things and life has not exactly cooperated!  Hopefully this will be better (and earlier) in future months.

Here’s the plan (DOC), based on two Bountiful Blessing boxes and one fresh fruit and veggie box:

Download a PDF.
The main thing I had hoped to accomplish before publishing it was to come up with a good ordering to the meal plan in order to use the fresh ingredients (celery, onions, potatoes) before they went bad.  Instead, just keep that in mind and pick the meals off in the order that makes your family happy!  I’ll try to get this all straightened out by next month. Edit: just FYI, I’m beginning with the chicken fried rice tonight and the slow-cooker black-eyed pea soup tomorrow to use up a good chunk of the produce without going to the grocery store yet.

Unlinked recipes:

  • Mom’s Sausage Stovetop Casserole — this is my mom’s recipe. Basically… if the sausage/hamburger is raw (it’s supposed to be, but I’m using cooked this month because that’s what’s in the AF box, just going to dice it and toss it in), then you cook it, drain it, and mix all the ingredients together on the stove. (It’s also supposed to be made with noodles and Velveeta, not mac-n-cheese packages, but I think this will turn out to be quite good and use lots of the mac-n-cheese which is otherwise a bit of a mammoth on this month’s menu.) Adjust proportions according to whimsy; the recipe also handles substitutions well. Onions are good too.
  • Chicken de Provence — My recipe. Rip up / dice the chicken, season quite heavily with herbs de provence, cook it on the stove in lots of olive oil, then add alfredo sauce (1/2 a jar or so), a dash (1/3 c) of tomato sauce, and maybe 3 oz of cream cheese. Stir till all melty and bubbly, serve over rice. This is not a giant recipe, but it’s very easy and yummy and we almost always have all the ingredients on hand–this is one of my what-am-I-going-to-make-in-10-minutes recipes.

January Angel Food boxes:

I’m very excited about next month’s boxes; they look like they rely even less on pre-prepared food and are generally healthier.  My current plan is to order:

  • 2 Bountiful Blessing boxes ($41)
  • 1 S2 box (steak and chicken, $23)
  • 1 S3 box (fruit and veggie, $23)

That’s probably more than we can eat in a month, but the S2 box is too much in line with what we like to have on hand in the freezer to pass up!  Maybe I’ll shift some of that to dinners and use some of the more lunch-like items in the Bountiful Blessing boxes for lunch and extras!

Just pretend this is a baby book.

I am a poor record-keeper.  Which is a bit odd, since I enjoy writing, but somehow these things—the days of first steps, first words, trials and triumphs—they escape my notice.  This attitude was quite solidified the first time E got into some “precious” item of my own past and did it some damage, and I realized that the here-and-now reality of my little daughter was more important to me than the memory of times and people past.  Things burn and turn to dust.  And I struggle, likewise, with finding events particularly important in the context of eternity: far too much, I think; there is surely some value in baby books and memorials, and it is my own fault for having trouble finding it.

At any rate, E’s life has been more chronicled than R’s, in no small part because people bugged me about it more.  Did you write it down?  Did you get her footprints stamped?  Did you send off for her birth certificate? (Yes, we do have R’s birth certificate, but it was literally months later in arriving than E’s was!)  But there is one thing that has really struck me lately about R, and so I thought it was perhaps worth a post: I do believe the child talks more now, at 14 months, than E did even on her second birthday.  It’s probably E’s “fault,” because she talks to R from sunup to sundown and R’s vocabulary is clearly reflective of her elder sister’s more than my own.  And I’m not implying a difference in intelligence, either: I frankly don’t really follow milestones at all anymore, but I’m pretty sure there’s a wide range of “normal” in speech development and the girls’ personalities could easily put them at opposite ends of the spectrum even without their own interactions.  That said; R’s words, as nearly as I can recall them all; words she says spontaneously/unprompted, consistently, and clearly:

  • names: Ellie, Mommy, Daddy, Mammaw, Grandad
  • bye, hi, night night, mmm-wee, up, me, I (love you), awwww, whee, please, no, baby, milk, eat, boo, uh-oh, ice, eyes
  • she sings, semi-recognizably (you can tell which one she’s trying for): ring around the rosie, the alphabet song, twinkle twinkle, itsy bitsy spider, and old macdonald

I also want to remember something that is incredibly special to me to watch: while the girls have long played with each other—and nicely—lately they’ve actually been moving into a stage of being actively affectionate with each other.  It astounds me to see how patient E is with R’s physically clumsy attempts to hug, tickle, tackle, and give her kisses, and it’s also unfathomably neat to see R initiating said hugs and playfulness instead of just being on the receiving end all the time.  There are few moments in my entire life that have made me as happy and almost giddy as walking into a room and finding them sitting next to each other playing, “reading” a book together, or just plain hanging out.  They have their small moments of disgruntledness, but they’re much less than I’d expect given that they’re both still pretty clumsy (prone to flatly knocking each other down by accident!) and that the lines of communication are distinctly limited.